So here I sit … on the eve of sort of a big birthday …
And I feel a bit sad. Not because of the birthday. Not because of the celebration … or the lack thereof.
I’m not really sure why I feel sad.
Is it because Doug is leaving tomorrow morning for 4 days when we’re not used to him being away? We’re used to him working. A lot. We’re used to the shift work and the not seeing much of him for a few days at a time. But we’re not used to him actually sleeping somewhere else.
Maybe that’s why I’m sad.
Maybe it’s the crappy weather today. Freezing rain/ice this morning caused us to keep close to home. We didn’t even venture out to church, a place where I can usually get refreshed.
Then the freezing rain turned to just rain for pretty much the rest of the day.
Gray skies and rain. That would make anyone depressed.
Maybe that’s it. I just don’t know.
Maybe it was the almost constant bickering amongst my kids today. It seems when they can’t go outside to play and release all that pent-up energy, they take it out on each other. Joy!
Maybe it’s the book I just finished reading yesterday. Nicholas Sparks’ A Bend in the Road. I’ve only read two of his books, but I just love his writing. So much emotion.
I really, truly have no good reason to be sad.
I am blessed. Truly blessed. But sad just the same.
In that knowledge, I’m going to go talk to God a while, then go to bed.
Tomorrow is another day.
(Cue the song by Annie … Tomorrow! Tomorrow! I love ya! Tomorrow! You’re always a day away!)
Hopefully the sun will come out ... tomorrow.